“Sparks of the Divine”

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“Sparks of the Divine”

(footnotes are linked, so discover more about symbols used in the story)

Once upon a non-time, far far away in the nearest most subtlest place you cannot imagine, is a non-land — a non-space where the formless Divine Mother of the Universe is awake. The non-land of peace, happiness and bliss where everything is one without a second. Her eternal union shines from this non-place which we also know as the Center of Consciousness (1). Her unconditional lap of fearlessness is Pure Knowing and is the substratum from which the sparkly fire of Her Heart radiates nothing but Love. It is the non-place where there are no questions, no forms, no sounds; there is no movement, it is the home of Silence…

From this abode, from this sparkly fire, a spark shoots away from Divine Mother, appearing to be on a journey. Falling asleep, it flies through a dark land of potential (2), then falls into a dream where it is flying through a land of unlimited opportunities (3). Then falling even more asleep it lands softly on unfamiliar ground (4), known as earth…

During this sleep, without even noticing, Spark gained a mind, ten senses, and a body with the ability to breathe (5). Fortunate, because these instruments gave Spark the opportunity to explore everything that is contained in this worldly manifestation…

Like a newborn baby Spark was overloaded with new sensory input; never before did she have the opportunity to play with these instruments. So it took her a while to see where she had landed; it took her a while to hear the sounds flying through the air; unbelievable sensations entered her nose, the warm radiance of the sun came in contact with her skin and her body showed her how it was able to walk, to grasp, and to create sounds…

All these impressions hijacked her time, and for hours and hours she was intoxicated by the appearances that manifested around her; she forgot that she was dreaming, she never felt so alive. The beauty, the magnificence of this world, the indescribable sensations flowed into her mind, an ongoing stream that made her forget where she came from. After hours and hours her eyes couldn’t handle the light anymore, her nose gave up and closed its entrances, the hands lost their grip, feet stopped walking… Her body and mind needed rest. Almost not willing to surrender, the night fell over her, taking her senses back to their Source. She became still and after a while Silence entered…

Falling into a dream, she woke up in the dark land of potential, knowing she was very near to the unconditional lap of fearlessness of Mother Divine, and for a few hours she remembered home again; the land of peace, happiness, and bliss…

But as soon as the first light of the sun radiated from the horizon, Spark’s eyes opened, her mouth made a yawn, her body expressed itself fully by stretching out as far as it could. Confused by memories, she looked around. Perplexed by what just had happened, her mind started wondering. Baffled by the inability to hold the experience in the present moment, the thoughts ran around asking “where am I” and “where was I”. A memory came: it was very vague, but strong enough to keep her attention. She remembered HOME, but she couldn’t understand it. “Where is this place of Silence? Where can I go to find this place again? It must be here somewhere, because it cannot disappear. I must find the way”

She now had a quest (6), so she stood up and started to walk. After a day of searching in every corner underneath every stone, behind every tree, she surrendered again to the night. She had not found it. But just before she fell asleep, she remembered that last night brought her back in the direction of home, so she suddenly was filled with enthusiasm, “I am going home”. But, unfortunately her mind was so full of the impressions she collected during the day that the only thing she remembered when she woke up, were her dreams. Disappointment almost made her mind black as darkness, but out of the depth of this miserable feeling came a force… “There has to be a way to go home, I’ll find it, I have to find it, I am going to find it (7)

At the same moment, when she was refreshed and filled with determination, a bee zoomed by. The bee noticed Spark’s confusion and disorientation and asked: “What’s on your mind?” Spark answered: “I want to go home, but I don’t know where to go. All these opportunities, all these impressions, all these choices of where to go, make me unable to move. Can you help me?” “Of course I can”, answered the bee. “Just follow me, I know a farmer who is very wise. He must know the way home.”

Full of faith, she followed the bee. Following the little bee, and therefore having a direction, made her feel calm and secure. She noticed that she was paying less attention to the world around her; home was more important. “Just focus, and be alert to where we are going.” She didn’t want to lose the bee from her sight (8)

Down in the valley in front of a mountain, they found a place where a farmer was growing his crops. At least that is what it supposed it looked like. Trying not to judge the situation, Spark felt her faith decreasing. The place was everything but organized, the land was split up in so many different pieces she couldn’t count them, every little piece had a little wall around it made out of dirt, and there seemed to be no logic in what was growing on a particular field. Everything was mixed together, with no reason, no sense, and on top of that the crops really could use some water — there was hardly any life left in the plants…

In contrast to the chaos of the farm, the farmer was smiling and with a happily pace he walked towards them, saying: “Oh I’m so happy that you’ve come, would you be so kind to help me?” Surprised by the idea that she could be of service Spark replied “Of course”. The farmer guided them to a stream of water that came from the mountain. Here was a water wheel: it had four spokes and one of them was broken. The farmer told them that he was not able to fix the wheel; he was too old, he couldn’t see clearly, he needed someone who was able to judge the situation and could discriminate what needed to be done — he lacked the overview. “Can you see the problem and fix it?” She did, and in no time it was done…

“Thank you for helping me. I know you came with a reason, so please now that my mind is free from this worry tell me what that reason is.” Spark answered that indeed there was a reason they had come. She started to talk and explain her situation: she wanted to go home, she wanted to go back from where she came from, she knew she couldn’t find home here outside, because she had looked everywhere, and she couldn’t find it. She told him how she remembered going inside and being very close, but she also explained all about how she couldn’t get her mind to be quiet anymore, everything was so chaotic, the inner world also didn’t seem the way to go. ”Can you maybe help me?”

The farmer responded with his still, worry free mind. He said: “Being absorbed in the outside world a direction seems hard to find. Everything leads to misery although it appears for a moment to bring you happiness. If you start identifying with everything you experience (9), and label all the impressions with “mine” (10), “your” attractions and aversions will create fear (11). But remember fear is only possible when you forget that all is one; the duality removes you from the unconditional lap of fearlessness. This ignorance divides you from the whole, and loneliness arises. Therefore the outside world is not the way to go home. Closing your eyes and entering the jungle of thought patterns and waves of memories seems even more like an impassable road, but please don’t make the mistake of not going there, it is like an untraceable path inside that will lead you to home. I don’t know all the details of that inner road, but I can show you how to clear your mind a bit and tell you where to go. “Please do” responded Spark…

Pointing up the mountain to a beautiful transparent stream of water, the farmer continued: “On top of this mountain lives a Queen in a crystal palace. If you follow the stream, just before the Source there is a lake where Her palace is situated. There you will find the Queen. She is so wise that she knows all the answers and she will give you your answer without you having to speak: there all mysteries will be solved. Her Silence will bring you home”

“But before you go, let me show you what you just fixed for me, it will help you on your journey”. He brought Spark’s attention to the stream of water. The water wheel, now fixed, was scooping up water from the stream into a little handmade ditch. The farmer showed Spark what he could do with the water that was flowing in the little handmade ditch. With discrimination, he made openings in the dirt walls that surrounded the little pieces of field, merely by removing the dirt and while he was busy with this Spark observed how one by one the fields were getting water, how one by one the plants in the fields came to life. With full attention she was absorbed in this process. Fascinated, she witnessed the process until all the fields were attended to, how the water entered and fertilized all the fields…

Later, over a warm cup of tea, the farmer and Spark had a long conversation about how the wheel represented four different functions of the mind. He explained that if the wheel is fixed, if the spoke that represents the judging, knowing and discriminating part of the mind is fixed, and all four functions work together, it is an instrument to harmonize the mind-field (12). He explained how the mind-field appears to be split up in so many different parts, and that if the parts are not coordinated and balanced, there seems to be no logic to what the mind contains. However, when the four functions of mind work together and they allow bit by bit the stream of water which comes from the Source high on the mountain, to run through all the separated fields, the mind comes to life, meaning that then it is fertile and it can be of service to the world. As crops sacrifice themselves to be food for people, the mind sacrifices its thoughts by recognizing that only the Source keeps the mind alive. The mind, just like food, is nothing but an instrument. The mind-field is an effect of the Source; it is not the cause, and if it forgets its Fertilizer it will lose all its potential, just as the fields were almost dried up because they had no water…

When all the fields of the mind one by one get attention, the mere removal or letting go of ignorance of where it comes from allows the mind to be “alive” (13). The whole mind will express the beauty of the Source, it will know it IS because of the water that comes from the mountain, it will remember the Source, it will fully understand it is an instrument to bring you home as far as it can lead you. Just as food makes you healthy, coordinating the mind makes it possible to walk to the top of the mountain to experience the Source…

“Wow!” Spark saw that the mind could be transformed into an instrument instead of being an obstacle in this world. She saw the mind as a new friend. The only thing she couldn’t fully grasp was the understanding of the Source. “That’s OK” replied the farmer, when you get there you will come to understand. Just go and find out for yourself. ENJOY the path up the mountain…

Steady as she goes, step by step Spark followed the stream of beautiful transparent crystal-clear water up the mountain. Sometimes she fell, sometimes she ran, sometimes she waited to enjoy the view, sometimes she hid because of storms, sometimes she played with animals, sometimes she was tired and rested a bit, but always after a while she continued because her curiosity was bigger than whatever she was doing. Her desire was more important than any sensory experience she encountered on the way. She wanted to go home, nothing else could satisfy her…

And one day, sooner then she expected, she was standing in front of the crystal palace. The Queen invited her to come in, offering her hand with a smile that resonated through the whole valley. Spark wanted to explain why she had come and wanted to ask all the questions she had in her mind, but nothing was able to come out of her mouth. While walking hand in hand with the Queen she felt a stream of wisdom coming from inside: the mind who was still her friend transformed the stream into words. It was something like this: “Welcome my child, I’ve been waiting for you. I will show you the last steps to bring you home, all the effort you have made so far will be rewarded, just enjoy this last part of your journey. Let go of fear of the unknown, because you know exactly where you’re going, surrender to what I’m about to show you.”

They walked silently to the lake behind the crystal palace. The view was amazing, the sun made a magnificent display, sparks of light reflecting on the flat surface of the water. In the middle of the water was a tree, a tree whose roots were up in the sky and all its branches in the direction of the water. It looked like it was growing upside down in the sky, floating above the mirror of the water…

For a moment they just observed this unusual sight, for a moment they found themselves in Silence. After a while the mind started again transforming the stream of knowledge into words — it was again the Queen guiding her, with gentle loving words. “Make your mind like the surface of this lake, still and silent. As soon as a thought comes in your mind it will cause movement on the surface and the reflection will be disturbed, it will show a deformed appearance of the reality. The waves that thoughts create will appear as independent objects and will start to think that they are divided from the whole, multiplicity appears, and forgetting starts.”

“But if you practice and train the mind, to make it still, to see beyond the waves, the mind will again become calm (14). And when all the thought patterns are purified, meaning that they know they are one with the lake, that they are not waves, but water that flows from the Source, they lose their color and become clear again (15). And when the mind is serene and calm it can lead you to the highest Truth, that there is something beyond the mind, that the mind is just like a mirror, it is reflecting the manifestation, it is a reflection of the Source (16).”

“The mind becomes like this tree (17): it knows it has its roots up in the sky, not in the ground. It started to grow from the sky. The branches, the leaves are but expressions of the seed that started to grow in the sky. The branches and the leaves are the fruits of the Source, growing in this reflection we know as earth. When the mind becomes like this crystal palace (18), it is able to hold any concept, any object in its true form, there is no more coloring projected on the objects of the world, but you will be able to see everything just as it is. All the objects are an expression of the Source, and you will see the Non-Dual reality in all the diversity.”

“This is the secret. This is the secret: the mind will be able to hold just enough to make it possible to guide you to Silence, from there you have to go beyond the mind, but that is beyond your human effort, the Source will take care of that. You wait, and wait, and practice, and practice, try to go further, but you can’t. You have to keep on longing, longing to go home, surrender all of your being…longing…longing…longing till the day comes the Source leads you home.”

A smile of understanding appeared on Spark’s calm face. Her heart was open, she was able to receive everything the Queen had told her. In processing it she was left with only one question, but before she could form it, the Queen continued: “I will explain more about the Source“. There is a point (19) on this mountain where the Source starts the flow. If you recede into it, it will guide you home. You came from this point, when you started your journey at the beginning of this story. You fell asleep and woke up in this dream. Your home is beyond this point, the stream is the beginning of your dream, it is the beginning of the manifestation, of the appearance of all the objects, as mind, body and world.”

“If you had not paid attention, if you had not made any efforts to remember home, you would have enjoyed the stream of water flowing from the Source, meaning you would have gone downstream and become more and more entangled in the world, more and more away from the Source. But you turned around with the remembrance of where you came from, you started your quest. You had to move against the stream, you had to move in a way that felt like going against the flow, but it was the only way to find the Source again. With determination, with guidance, with effort, with letting go of the worldly pleasures, with non-attachment, with opening up to the wisdom of the stream, you found your way to Me.”

“I’m the Queen (20), who knows the beginning and the flow of the stream. Being up here on the mountain I can look over the whole world, I can observe all the stages and levels of Consciousness flowing out of Me. It won’t affect Me, it won’t change Me, but I do know this world appears because of the stream of water that flows from My Source. With that knowledge see Me in All, remember Me in everything you do, enjoy everything with the awareness that the world is not yours, but that it is ‘alive’ because I am. You and I are one and the same. You don’t need to go anywhere, you can enjoy this and remember Me at the same time. If you remember Me in all there is, in all you do, you come to know you are not the doer, and you can help Me managing this appearance known as world, you can be off service to anyone who is looking for Me. Will you help Me? Then we can be a team. But also it gives you a way to stay here and ENJOY, you can play with everything around you. You don’t have to leave this place. All this time you were looking for a way out of here. But now you know you can stay here and be home everywhere you are.”

“And when you can hold all of this together, you’ll know the Source and it manifestations are the same. And when in the deep core of your being you understand this process, it will makes it easy to hold the opportunity to just sit in Silence. As the stream is the effect of the cause we know as the Source, there is a way to just for a moment, leave the effect behind and just sit with the cause. If you sit still, let go of the world, let go of the body, let go of the mind, and witness how all these parts remember the Source, the Source will absorb it all, and then I, Mother Divine, will rest in my own Self, in my Own True nature (21)…You will be home…AUM…AUM…AUM…”

And Spark did, with the Knowledge of how the outgoing flow of manifestation was one flow of consciousness appearing in many levels and stages. She understood that the way to the Source, was temporarily setting aside everything that flows from that Source. Knowing she did not have to leave it behind permanently, that if she came back fully surrounded by the manifestation, again she could use the instruments the Queen had given her…

She made her body still, left the world behind, made her breath calm to lead her to her mind (22), aimed all of the mind in the direction of the Source. Then the Queen guided her up the stream and for some non-time she was HOME again, HOME in the unconditional lap of fearlessness of Divine Mother…AUM…AUM…AUM…(23)

Footnotes of “Sparks of the Divine”:

(1) The question mark in the circle diagram, referring to Atman, Brahman, Shiva, the Absolute Reality, Turiya, Tripura or Silence of AUM from the Mundakya Upanishad.
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(2) The deep sleep state, the causal plane, subconscious, Prajna, or the M of AUM from the Mandukya Upanishad. (back to story)

(3) The dreaming state, the subtle plane, unconscious, Taijasa, or the U of AUM for the Mandukya Upanishad. (back to story)

(4) The waking state, the gross level, conscious, Vaisvanara, or the A of AUM from the Mandukya Upanishad. (back to story)

(5) From Mandukya Upanishad, the 3rd verse: “The first aspect (of Atman) is the waking state, In this state, consciousness is turned to the external. With its seven instruments and nineteen channels, it experiences the gross phenomenal world.” The seven instruments are: space, air, fire, water, earth individuation and energy. The nineteen channels are: 4 functions of mind; Manas, Chitta, Ahamkara, Buddhi. 5 Karmendriyas (senses of action) of speaking, grasping, moving, procreation, elimination. 5 Jnanendriyas (cognitive senses) of hearing, touching, seeing, tasting, smelling. And 5 vayus: prana, apana, samana, udana, and vyana. (back to story)

(6) This is the turning moment in the story, prior to this point it was an outgoing wave (adhyasa), now it is reversing. Adhyasa is the force that make consciousness appear to move outward. As soon as it moves outward, Avidya seems to veil what is left behind with ignorance, with forgetting. On our inward journey we need to recede through both Adhyasa and Avidya to find again what is hidden underneath both; our True Self. (back to story)

(7) Sankalpa Shakti: “I will do it, I can do it, I have to do it, and I am going to do it!”
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(8) Yoga Sutra 2.54*: when the mental organs of senses and actions (indriyas) cease to be engaged with the corresponding objects in their mental realm, and assimilate or turn back into the mind-field from which they arose, this is called pratyahara, and is the fifth step.
Commentary of Vyasa; “Just as the bees fly, as the queen flies; and sit as the queen sits; so the senses become restrained, as the mind is restrained. This is pratyahara. From Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras, Translated by Rama Prasada. (back to story)

(9) Yoga Sutra 1.4*: at other times, when one is not in Self-realization, the Seer appears to take on the form of the modifications of the mind field, taking on the identity of those thought patterns. (back to story)

(10) The habit of the ahamkara (one of the four functions of mind) that is not useful; coloring the thoughts as “mine”. (back to story)

(11) Yoga Sutra 2.3*: there are five kinds of coloring (kleshas): 1) forgetting, or ignorance about the true nature of things (avidya), 2) I-ness, individuality, or egoism (asmita), 3) attachment or addiction to mental impressions or objects (raga), 4) aversion to thought patterns or objects (dvesha), and 5) love of these as being life itself, as well as fear of their loss as being death (abhinivesha). (back to story)

(12) From the Upanishads: a wheel with four spokes representing four functions of mind: Manas, Chitta, Ahamkara and Buddhi. Buddhi is the “broken spoke” in this story, it represents the function that discriminates, judges, decides and knows. Mostly Buddhi is ignored, invisible, or clouded-over, because the desires in the Chitta overrule Manas, and because Ahamkara is thinking it is the Self, and therefore the four spokes don’t work together as an instrument for the Self. (back to story)

(13) Yoga Sutra 4.3*: Incidental causes or actions do not lead to the emergence of attainments or realization, but rather, come by the removal of obstacles, much like the way a farmer removes a barrier (sluice gate), so as to naturally allow the irrigation of his field. (back to story)

(14) Yoga Sutra 1.2*: Yogash Chitta Vritti Nirodah
Yoga is the control (nirodah, regulation, channeling, mastery, integration, coordination, stilling, quieting, setting aside) of the modifications (gross and subtle thought patterns) of the mind field. (back to story)

(15) Brahman is one without a second, just as the waves are not separated from the ocean. (back to story)

(16) Tripura Rahasya (a tantric text) uses the metaphor of a mirror, this manifestation is like an image on a mirror; Consciousness is the surface of the mirror. It stays undisturbed, unaffected, uninvolved with images (chapter 14 verse 54-55). (back to story)

(17) Bhagavad Gita chapter 15 “The Eternal Tree of Life” (back to story)

(18) Yoga Sutra 1.41*: When the modifications of mind have become weakened, the mind becomes like a transparent crystal, and thus can easily take on the qualities of whatever object observed, whether that object be the observer, the means of observing, or an object observed, in a process of engrossment called samapattih.(back to story)

(19) Bindu means point: The whole of manifestation seems to emerge out of a point, as all will collapse again into a point, though this point is not an object. (back to story)

(20) Tripura; tri= three pura= city, she is the one who looks over the three cities (waking, dreaming and deep sleep state). (back to story)

(21)Yoga Sutras 1.3*: Then the Seer abides in Itself, resting in its own True Nature, which is called Self-realization. (back to story)

(22)World -> Body -> Breath -> Mind -> Beyond (back to story)

(23)AUM, represents A = waking state, U = dreaming state, M = deep sleep state, and the silence after AUM is the fourth, called Turiya, which it in this story referred to as HOME. (back to story)

* Yoga Sutras; Interpretive Translation, by Swami Jnaneshvara Bharati (www.swami.com/yoga-sutras.htm)

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