Back to Diary…..”Dear Mother Divine”
Dear Divine Mother,
(October 10 2015) The more I witness you spectacle of Divine play, the more I am in awe with the appearance of the phenomena of separateness… The grand illusion veiling Your non-dual dance of apparent duality… What a wonder it is…
Looking at the clouds I see You dancing in open space forming shapes that can never be grasped. These shapes are an effect of forces subtler than the clouds themselves as they depend on the play of wind, water and the sun. The clouds appear to be individual forms, separate entities, but would never become visible without these subtler forces. What if a cloud had the appearance of an ego, thinking it is separate from this play of subtler forces and it is creating its own shape?
As the autumn wind blows the leaves through space, they surrender their destiny to the play of the wind. We see they are moved by forces different from them. They would lay lifeless without the wind. All these leaves are blown by the same wind. What if a leaf would have an ego, thinking it is separate from this dance and it is moving itself around?
All flowers, plants, and trees receive their nourishment from one ground. They are fed by one sun. They are sprinkled by the same clouds. As one display of nature they flourish all together in a constant dance of change, giving and sacrificing to maintain the unspoken balance of life. What if a flower started to claim its own self-existence that it is blooming using its own force?
Dear Mother, what if we sharpened our perception and we could see in one glance the forces that shape the water into clouds. What if we stood still for a moment to witness the one wind that moves all the leaves around. What if we could see in one glance the energy of the earth that feeds and holds all its flowers, plants and trees. We would see that their growth, being, destiny, and dissolving are governed by the inseparable coexistence of subtler life-forces playing together as one force of nature. We could almost see the invisible one energy that puts everything into motion.
If we can see this one energy that puts everything into motion as Your breath blowing as the wind, ooh dear Divine Mother, as Your lap holding and growing all the seeds, can we then imagine something similar happening on an even subtler level? This is mere the apparent energy of nature, what about the apparent energy of the totality of existence?
Your subtlest force called Adi Prana (adi= first prana = unit; first unit ) moves from Your innermost Silence both as a wind that starts the motion of Your manifestation as also the ground in which all Your ‘seeds of potential’ (vasanas and samskaras) lie resting. Adi Prana is the life force that energizes the seeds to merge outward as the apparent play of duality, from the subtlest to the grossest, both microcosm and macrocosm.
Your Adi Prana moves through these ‘seeds of potential’ making them bloom into thoughts in the mind-field to give birth to all imaginable moments and forms as a waking dream.
Like a seed grows, lives and dies as a flower in the garden so every samskara grows, lives and dies as a thought in the mind-field. A bundle of flowers becomes a bouquet… A bundle of samskaras is a jiva, blooming on this earth as a flower we call human being. A garden of flowers becomes a family, a society, a nation. We are all the effect of an amazing composition of samskaras giving a temporary form by Your breath of life, ooh dear Mother…..What a wonder it is!
It is almost unbelievable that somewhere in the middle of this somehow something starts to own the flower called human being! Veiling itself from Your perennial garden of existence. Somehow even this is part of Your dance as then the joy of awakening seems to happen. Slowly the flower releases itself from the imagined bondage of separateness by looking around wondering “Who am I?” and “What is this?” It starts to see the rest of garden and its transient nature of the forms in the garden.
Then maybe the flower starts to experience the one energy that not only enlivens itself, but start to see that this one energy puts everything into motion. It starts to intuit the macro cosmic field of samskaras, through which only one flow of prana flows to enliven the seeds. This one field of samskaras merges outward as different forms, but are all one garden of existence. The flower called human being is a living shrine that can spreads the fragrance of this Divine life force throught selfless giving, non-harming and non-attachment into the garden of existence.
Waking up in Your perennial garden, dear Mother Divine, blooming like one of Your flowers, forming bouquets with other flowers—something we call relationships—witnessing births and deaths as one perennial dance is the most indescribable, overwhelming, magnificent delight. Waking up means removing the idea that I am a separate flower… It is all You… You are me… I am You… I am the ground, the seeds, the flowers, the bouquets, the energy the gives life to it all and the Formless from which this all seems to manifest. Yet with this realization the flowers can bloom as long as they receive energy from the source to fully enjoy the garden of existence… So that’s why I am ever increasingly in awe with the appearance of separateness as I feel You, ooh dear Formless Mother move through “me” to give life to the notion called “me”… And in this awe doer-ship, ownership and separateness fall away….BEING is what is left…
Do you want to find the source of the wind that enlivens you from the Center of Consciousness? Do you know how to catch the wind and follow it to its source? One of the ways to catch the wind is listening into the inner space for the sounds of the mantra… Mantra as its syllables is a very gross aspect of this wind, thus can be discovered and followed inward. Tuning your attention to this stream of words will lead you it its feeling, to then lead you to its awareness to eventually guide you Home, to the formless Garden of Tripurasundari from which she dances Her spectacle of form. Along the way you can feel how the mantra gives life to “you” and then it become gradually evermore impossible to own the wind, the seeds, the motion, the form….
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This site is an offering to those who deeply long to experience Pure Consciousness that is known as Divine Mother or Tripura (‘Tri’ means three, and ‘pura’ means city); She is the one that lives in the three cities of Waking, Dreaming and Deep Sleep. Temporary leaving behind the three cities and residing only in Pure Consciousness is called Self-realization. Another name for this realization is Yoga; the union of the individual self with the universal Self; the union of Atman with Brahman, or Shiva with Shakti; or the dis-union of Purusha and Prakriti. Some might think of Tripura as an anthropomorphic being but She is not, She is the Non-dual Reality in which all appearing manifestation seems to exist. All that is, is the Non-dual Reality.
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