Diary…..”Dear Mother Divine”

Today, as I pretend to write these words to You, ooh dear Mother Divine, I know I am not writing to something outside of me, but to That which is at the core of my being. I am writing to my True Self. It doesn’t require words to be or communicate with That, with Thee. You are Formless, beyond words. It is of tremendous help though to sometimes write to You as if You hear these words. It helps to learn to formulate words, to intimately allow the heart to speak, to remind myself of insights that can easily be washed over again by ignorance. So, I like to pretend sometimes that “I” am talking to the real “Me”. It bridges the non-existing gap between the non-self and the Self…

Ma Tripurashakti

 
This is what I mean when I personally speak of Divine Mother
 
May 27 2016: Unity plays as Diversity…
December 24 2015: Your Grand Non-dual Story…
October 10 2015: Perennial Garden of Existence…
September 25 2015: Formless Bhakti… BEING LOVE… FREEEEEEE…
July 31 2015: Guru Purnima 2015
July 8 2015: Altar of Love…
June 25 2015: Prayer to Mother…
Somewhere in 2011: Sparks of the Divine…
 

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Unity (Yoga) plays as Diversity…


 

(May 27 2016) If you and I receded into the Source out of which we emerged do we dive into different Sources? No. We are not merely connected. We are coming from the same Source. We all come from the same Source. Can you “see” it…. Everything, all appearing forms come from That. And this is actually the subtler meaning of Yoga…read more

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Your Grand Non-dual Story…

Grand Non-dual Story
 

(December 24 2015) As the longing to know You grows, You gently reveal Your true nature to those who contemplate on You. You allow us to slowly expand our understanding so that we can peep into Your playground from behind Your appearing scenery, from backstage. In the three levels of Consciousness You are performing an eternal show that entertains the senses, without You ever doing anything. Your constant flux of the non-existing elements, the uninterrupted flow of apparent movement, is dancing in formless shapes. From the layer of infinite wisdom, Prajna, thoughts keep bubbling up into Your theater called mind, morphing into words and actions, telling endless stories. To give us—as appearing individuals—the opportunity to either unconsciously or consciously perform a role in the spectacle of experiences. Ooh dear Divine Mother, Your playwriting is inexhaustible, as from Your Formlessness endless stories can be told…
 
As this individual is trying to wake up to its true nature, to You, ooh Divine Mother, it slowly is able to admit its role in this Divine Play. Mostly, it still believes its story is real. Its past is its identity. Its desires are the apparent future. Looking around it perceives the fellow performers as separate. Some people are a part of its story, some seem to be able to move on the stage of life unseen, unnoticed, never being a part of “my” storyline.
 
Ooh… everything always seemed so real. Real meaning being unconsciously engaged in a world ‘out there’. In which this little island called “me” floats around experiencing the incoming sensory experiences as coming from a separate world. I versus the world. The objects I picked up felt not-me. As they seemed something solid, firm, something existing on themselves. The sounds I heard felt like different from me. As there is the sensation that they entered into me from outside. The colors I saw looked like separate from me. As my eyes seemed to constantly take pictures from a world out there. Constantly, it seemed that by experiencing the world through the senses it enhanced the feeling of separation. But there is no separation… It is the grand illusion of duality performed on the stage of Non-duality. read more
 

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Perennial Garden of Existence…

(October 10 2015) The more I witness you spectacle of Divine play, the more I am in awe with the appearance of the phenomena of separateness… The grand illusion veiling Your non-dual dance of apparent duality… What a wonder it is…
 
Looking at the clouds I see You dancing in open space forming shapes that can never be grasped. These shapes are an effect of forces subtler than the clouds themselves as they depend on the play of wind, water and the sun. The clouds appear to be individual forms, separate entities, but would never become visible without these subtler forces. What if a cloud had the appearance of an ego, thinking it is separate from this play of subtler forces and it is creating its own shape?
 
As the autumn wind blows the leaves through space, they surrender their destiny to the play of the wind. We see they are moved by forces different from them. They would lay lifeless without the wind. All these leaves are blown by the same wind. What if a leaf would have an ego, thinking it is separate from this dance and it is moving itself around? read more
 
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Formless Bhakti… BEING LOVE… FREEEEEEE…

(September 25 2015) Sometimes you feel anger or frustration but just doesn’t seem to be able to understand the reason…. as if all details have fallen away… raw undefined anger/frustration is present without there being an object, a person or a situation to direct it to, to discharge it to or to blame it on… It feels like the collection of old emotions of thousands and thousands of moments of this emotion stored in the same file folder, in which details have fallen away, is coming forward. Mind likes to find a reason, but uselessly dumping it on others is not useful… even harmful. What we are left with is to learn to be undisturbed, unaffected and uninvolved even when these waves of pure emotion come up. It is a sign of progress as it shows us that we are diving deeper into the storehouse of mind. Thus, no need to worry when it happens!
 
It also shows us the potency of raw emotion without an object. The shakti, the power, these emotions have can be tremendous. It is quit the experience to get in touch with this… As this power is not “bad”. It is the coloring of the power that is not useful; the anger and frustration are the result of unfulfilled desires. Which are the effects of the colorings of “me” and “mine” that ahamkara added to the sensory experiences of this Divine play.
 
Can you remember a moment in which this was felt. Yes? It means you have some direct experience! Namely, of the power of emotion standing alone without a specific object, situation or person. What if we could direct this power? What is we could “ride” this power to a useful destination? Do you remember the focus you had in being in this emotional state?… I remember that it can take over the whole mind-field, nothing else exists but this emotion… Sometimes even as a samadhi-like experience… Meaning, so easy to get lost and absorbed into it.
 
What if we can stay alert and conscious as these waves move through the mind-field? What if we could consciously evoke this power of emotion, but then in relation to love? I know Love is actually not an emotion. It is beyond all emotions. But can you remember a time when the love for something was experienced so deeply? For a person, such as a lover, a child or parent? Or for an object? Like your favorite teddy bear? I remember moments like this, it was love based on attachment, but ooh, what a strong feeling it was.
 
What if you were able to evoke this feeling of Love consciously in relation to this person or object? And what if you were then able to drop the object? Then you would also experience the power of this feeling standing on it own just like with the emotion as anger or frustration. Not needing a person, an object or situation. Can this not be done all the time? I mean… if this can be done once, it can be done constantly as this evoking doesn’t need an object, doesn’t need a person, doesn’t need a specific situation. These objects of love do not have to be present. We don’t have to created the perfect circumstance outside ourselves to evoke this feeling of love. It can be evoked all the time, in every here and now. read more

 

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Gury Purnima 2015…

(July 31 2015) Q: Dear formless Mother Divine,
 
How to describe the indescribable?
How to grasp and hold the Love that cannot be perceived by the mind since its size is immeasurable formless and beyond the realm of the mind? How to express this Love within the field of mind, within the nonexistent manifestation, if mind cannot hold it as it is?
The mind is only able to transmit a little reflection of this Love into the waking state, and yet even this little expression is so amazing, so spectacular, so sweet, so embracing, so nourishing, so stilling, please guide me in finding a way to express it and hold it.
 
A: All there is, is to surrender into this immeasurable formless Love, and you will no longer need words, nor questions, nor answers, you need not to hold on to anything, because there will be just LOVE. All your efforts aimed in this direction will increase the awareness and nature of this Love and therefore will expand the stream that flows from the formless source, through the heart, through the mind, into the manifestation, and words will surface. You will have to understand they are mere attempts and impossible to hold that which cannot be hold, to express that that cannot be expressed, but yet can be enjoyed and pointers towards formless Love. read more

 

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Altar of Love…

(July 9 2015) Entering the shrine of the Lord of Love, after stilling its space, after stilling its sound… the altar of Silence appeared in the heart of BEing. She asked; “Which Truth do you allow to reside here? Which wordless knowing reverberates through your whole being from this altar?”
 
I responded: Let it be Love… so pure, so perfect. It’s power, Your power is the source out of which Your ripples started to spark into a divine picture of Love to express Your profound ability to shape the ever-formless while never leaving Your unconditional Love. In the heart of hearts, in the depth of formless Love, Truth, Your Truth sings a soundless song whispering that Shiva and Shakti are one….
The formless and the auspicious ability to reflect form on it are one Love… ever united, never separate, in an eternal embrace of Existence, Consciousness and Bliss…. ♥

 

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Prayer to Mother…

(June 25 2015) Ooh, how amazing it is to enjoy Your Love… oooh Divine Mother. But I have to share the admiration I have for all of us who walk this path of fire and light toward formless Love. As simple as Your Truth is, the appearing walk to it seems difficult, long and sometimes unbearable. All those identities being chopped away one by one…. Who has the strength, the guts, the persistence to go all the way? Fortunately, I know some who are walking in your direction, ooh Divine Mother! How amazing is that! How some of us keep looking at our fears, attachment, jealousy, pride, manipulation skills, selfish behavior to get what we want, aversions, and false identities to declare “THESE ARE NOT WHO I AM!” And that in the middle of busy lives, relationships, kids and/or duties! I love to share Your Beauty, Ooh formless Divine Mother, but let us not forget that evermore residing in Your Formless unconditional Love does require sweat, burning and chopping, so lets not pretend this fire is not here and present a squishy path. Remove the avidya and walk brave on this path to Love! Love really is all there is, so beyond the fire truly is light…. So I pray for strength… to continue this journey ♥ Thank you all for sharing this path… lets sweat together! AHAM BRAHMASMI!

 

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Sparks of the Divine..

(Somewhere in 2011) Once upon a non-time, far far away in the nearest most subtlest place you cannot imagine, is a non-land — a non-space where the formless Divine Mother of the Universe is awake. The non-land of peace, happiness and bliss where everything is one without a second. Her eternal union shines from this non-place which we also know as the Center of Consciousness. Her unconditional lap of fearlessness is Pure Knowing and is the substratum from which the sparkly fire of Her Heart radiates nothing but Love. It is the non-place where there are no questions, no forms, no sounds; there is no movement, it is the home of Silence…
 
From this abode, from this sparkly fire, a spark shoots away from Divine Mother, appearing to be on a journey. Falling asleep, it flies through a dark land of potential, then falls into a dream where it is flying through a land of unlimited opportunities. Then falling even more asleep it lands softly on unfamiliar ground, known as earth…
 
During this sleep, without even noticing, Spark gained a mind, ten senses, and a body with the ability to breathe. Fortunate, because these instruments gave Spark the opportunity to explore everything that is contained in this worldly manifestation… read more

 


 

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Yoga Meditation, Contemplation, and Devotion for Self-realization

This site is an offering to those who deeply long to experience Pure Consciousness that is known as Divine Mother or Tripura (‘Tri’ means three, and ‘pura’ means city); She is the one that lives in the three cities of Waking, Dreaming and Deep Sleep. Temporary leaving behind the three cities and residing only in Pure Consciousness is called Self-realization. Another name for this realization is Yoga; the union of the individual self with the universal Self; the union of Atman with Brahman, or Shiva with Shakti; or the dis-union of Purusha and Prakriti. Some might think of Tripura as an anthropomorphic being but She is not, She is the Non-dual Reality in which all appearing manifestation seems to exist. All that is, is the Non-dual Reality.
 
On this site the teachings of Yoga, Vedanta, and Samaya Sri Vidya Tantra are offered to guide you in learning to meditate directly on Tripura by using modern ways of communication such as through animations, while preserving the ancient wisdom. These teaching have been given to us by an ancient lineage of meditation masters, lovingly called the Tradition of the Himalayan masters. These practices lead us to a space of stillness and silence where Yoga meditation, contemplation, mantra and prayer converge into deep devotion and constant awareness of Tripura. At the end of the journey when all efforts are exhausted, grace will dawn. This is known as shaktipata, through which the final barrier is removed, which is the piercing of the bindu, and leads to the direct experience of Non-dual Reality. This finally reveals an unimaginable Joy from knowing the Non-dual Reality or Pure Consciousness!

 

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